The First Big Loss....of a Friend.

There is a person who I felt like knew everything was the closest part to God as I could get, without being next to him. This person exampled everything God would portray in a person. I now know... it was a human but I guess at the time I could not understand how such a God fearing person could make such a judgement based on non facts. This person was my best friend I had ever had. The one I could be completely honest with.. whether it was good or bad and at that time never felt judged. That was through the years of 2008-2018. Yes. a long time to be a friend. I can remember when the separation began with my husband, staying with my oldest. There was some sort of altercation between them and for some reason she targeted me, because I had asked her to leave (my daughter's friend). She got systems involved which were totally untrue. But it ruined a friendship, that I did hold dearly. A couple years later, I did try to reach back out to tell my side of the story but was met with words such as "you must be feeling guilty", "this was your fault"... etc. so that was the end of that. I will say that devistated me. I never expected to be met with this kind of animosity from someone I had trusted and loved for so long. That was when I started separating myself from the church. Because I thought that was the church. Now I now that isn't the truth.. but at that time... The most repspected person I knew showed me how people saw me. "If We are the Body" by Casting Crowns song.. explains all of my feelings.